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TtotheAtotheYtotheLOR
30 July 2008 @ 06:36 am

join my new graphics community !
& re-add me over at mercyhas_fallen
i WILL NOT be using this anymore past this post.

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TtotheAtotheYtotheLOR
29 July 2008 @ 11:45 am
does ANYONE know how to save your entire journal,
& than upload it into your new account?
i'm dying to change this username,
but i don't have an extra $15 for a name token.
if you guys to help me out,
that'd be an AMAZING thing. :D
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TtotheAtotheYtotheLOR
27 July 2008 @ 12:04 am

i hate that stupid cover. so much. it makes me lose respect for them. it makes me disappointed. i don't know why it's such a big deal to me, i mean, obviously i don't see it as the end of the world, and the end of my jonas fandom, but it does make me a little pissed that they'd agree to do that shot.

i'm tired of getting myself worked up on a mainstream celebrity as a role model only to find myself writing blogs like this.

but it's blogs like this that teach me things.
there is this thing called a human being.
your familiar right?
right.

us as human beings look towards others to teach us things, when we have absolute perfection to look towards right in front of us. JESUS.

so why is it that i must look towards somebody who will mess up. i know they will from the start; but i put them on a pedastool and practically call them my idol for doing such things.

jesus is jesus.
jonas is jonas.
& jonas will never live up to my jesus.
ever.

so i need to teach myself to not get worked up over things like this.

it's a cover.

sure thang, bb, it's not a cover i approve of. they are kids still to me, so the last thing i want to see is shirt pulling. my view on this is that joe is a person, and he's selling himself as a piece of meat by taking any pictures like this.

but it could have been a moment of weakness, or maybe they are different from what i thought.

either way, they aren't my idols, so i should only care for them. not myself.

"believe it or not but life not apparently about me anyway.
but i have found one is really is worthy so let me say,
so long self."
- so long self by mercyme.
 
 
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TtotheAtotheYtotheLOR
22 July 2008 @ 03:16 pm

Back in December, I was in a need for a good Jonas community where I could just talk without being judged. & as if I had some sort of genie, I found one. 

CallUsFreaks ; the sisters to my soul ; because that's just the way we roll. 

Uncensored Jonas Brothers Community; all discussions in fun and for laughs. I joked around on there alot. There was no harm done and I just found myself loving that community almost more than the boys. The girls there were hysterical and so laid back. I just loved it so much. Each and everyone were so real, and weren't some bubbly fangirls. They were me. Sarcastic, doesn't stick up for the boys when they know it'll be pointless, makes fun of them sometimes just for a good laugh; all in pure fun as well, useless, hilarious jokes about a relationship with them..blahblahhblahhh. It was amazing. I loved it so much.

Loved.

I was there for months, and I was one of the lucky ones that had been there since day 1. Literally. The day the community opened up, I happened across it and joined. 

I found myself checking there before anything else when I got online for the day. I'd spend up to an hour or more a day commenting, and laughing at the commentaries on there. 

But in late May, something brought me really close to God. Something inside of me had sparked and when I finally did think about the community again, I felt guilty. Some of the discussions I laughed at, and sometimes was apart of..were so against my morals entirely. So I just left. 

I didn't leave the community, I pretty much left JB behind entirely. But I felt that was weird after awhile and finally came back. 

I love those girls so much. they are absolutely amazing. But what's sad it probably one or two actually know who i am, even after everything I've posted there. I'm not popular there, yet it holds something special to me. 

That was the place I could go to whe I was stressed and I'd forget everything. 

That's what is making everything hard right now. What I feel is best for me is to leave the community completely. & never come back.

The comments are getting to me..
just today, the discussion was about some little 12 year olds over at Team Jonas who were talking about CallUsFreaks and all of the discussions that they think are disrespectful to the boys. Like how girls there talk about having sex with them when they wear a purity ring. But some other things as well.

When I read all of the comments from the members, and how they all pretty much said, "GTFO" or "Geez, some people are so sheltered" it made me so sad. Because I knew what I'd get either blocked, or hated for.

I agreed with these little twats at Team Jonas. 

If any member is reading this, you're probably thinking I'm 13 and just have had no education in that area before so I automatically think wrong of it. 

SO WRONG.

I'm 17. I know alot, trust me. Thus me saying I joked about it alot with you guys. I had all of those awesome discussions there, that made me laugh for the rest of the week like vikings(LMFAO!), chipmunks, and blue steel face. 

& many other things ONLY a CUF member would even get.

Which makes it so hard for me to get myself to leave this place. But I'm sure after a member reads this, I'll never be welcome there again. & I'm sorry. I truley am. 

I'm going against the girls I used to stick up for, 

But my relationship with God means more to me than anything. 

So I really hope I can get myself to leave soon.

 
 
 
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TtotheAtotheYtotheLOR
03 June 2008 @ 10:25 am
ahh, I changed the layout. new header and everything. hope you all like it. <33

new video. (sharpay evans ;; holiday[!])
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i'll have new graphics soon. i'm going to do an interest post. (:
 
 
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TtotheAtotheYtotheLOR
31 May 2008 @ 06:27 pm
out of boredom, i was searching through my files and found some old graphics of maria chapman that i made for a friend. i made two new ones. enjoy. show support for maria & the family. <33
[9] avatars
[4] banners
[1] wallpaper
*also includes steven curtis chapman, marybeth, stevey joy, & will franklin*



- i need ideas, people. (:
- credit if use.
- taking requests.
taylor xoxo
 
 
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TtotheAtotheYtotheLOR
27 May 2008 @ 09:47 am

does anyone have any requests they'd like me to do? i'll take anything. not just disney or christian rock stuff, anything. i'm really in a graphic drought. i have nothing to make of, haha. 

just leave a comment. if you can, drop me a few pictures. (:

 
 
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TtotheAtotheYtotheLOR
24 May 2008 @ 12:09 am

me and my friend almost cried making this. but we held through, but i just watched it and just burst into tears. it's finally sinking in. maria is gone...oh my god. just watch.


 
 
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TtotheAtotheYtotheLOR
22 May 2008 @ 12:46 am


spring is and foremost, will be the worst time of year for my family+i. & today, for my dear chapmans. some of the sweetest people that have ever entered my life. steven, marybeth, emily, caleb, willy frank, shaohannah hope, stevey joy, & maria sue.

their dear child, maria, five-years-old, was hit by a car today, suffering with severe, critical injuries. her injuries, sadly, led to death. 

i can't explain to you how shocked i was by this news. this little girl, although i've only met her+her family once, is knowingly, one of the happiest, biggest balls of energies. & knew so well about God for her small age. 

my family+i couldn't help but say, "oh my god" over and over again. i'm dead serious when i say this is all we STILL can say, although we heard the news a few hour ago. 

this is the most horrible thing that could have happened to this family, but what makes things worse, is their youngest son, will franklin, 17, was the one that ran over her. steven, the father, watched this, but could not get to dear maria in time. 

willy frank is one of the most genuine people i've ever known. he makes life fun, & i know i have alot of jonas brothers fans on my f-list, y/y? he is like the joe of the family. he's deeply funny, has a heart of gold, and is a true man of god. he really could not hurt a fly. 

i'm still so in shock over this news, that i can't even cry. i re-read the articles in my head over and over again, but it's like i'm hearing it for the first time. i don't even know where to begin.

i just saw this sweet girl back in september. so full of life, so happy. i want more than anything to bring this cherub face back, but the only thing i can do+you can do, is PRAY. please, anyone that has read this, please, pray. 



**willy frank+maria in the middle. holding onto each other.**
--all pictures belong to Chapfam albums. all photos taken on March 21st--

 
 
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TtotheAtotheYtotheLOR
13 May 2008 @ 12:44 am
a bunch of icons+banners, simply made with the NEW jonas brothers photoshoot for teen vogue. enjoy. (:
[22] icons
[9] banners
- credit.
- taking requests.
- feel free to ask me to add text &/or a texture/brush.

 
 
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