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i WILL NOT be using this anymore past this post.
& than upload it into your new account?
i'm dying to change this username,
but i don't have an extra $15 for a name token.
if you guys to help me out,
that'd be an AMAZING thing. :D
i hate that stupid cover. so much. it makes me lose respect for them. it makes me disappointed. i don't know why it's such a big deal to me, i mean, obviously i don't see it as the end of the world, and the end of my jonas fandom, but it does make me a little pissed that they'd agree to do that shot.
Back in December, I was in a need for a good Jonas community where I could just talk without being judged. & as if I had some sort of genie, I found one.
CallUsFreaks ; the sisters to my soul ; because that's just the way we roll.
Uncensored Jonas Brothers Community; all discussions in fun and for laughs. I joked around on there alot. There was no harm done and I just found myself loving that community almost more than the boys. The girls there were hysterical and so laid back. I just loved it so much. Each and everyone were so real, and weren't some bubbly fangirls. They were me. Sarcastic, doesn't stick up for the boys when they know it'll be pointless, makes fun of them sometimes just for a good laugh; all in pure fun as well, useless, hilarious jokes about a relationship with them..blahblahhblahhh. It was amazing. I loved it so much.
Loved.
I was there for months, and I was one of the lucky ones that had been there since day 1. Literally. The day the community opened up, I happened across it and joined.
I found myself checking there before anything else when I got online for the day. I'd spend up to an hour or more a day commenting, and laughing at the commentaries on there.
But in late May, something brought me really close to God. Something inside of me had sparked and when I finally did think about the community again, I felt guilty. Some of the discussions I laughed at, and sometimes was apart of..were so against my morals entirely. So I just left.
I didn't leave the community, I pretty much left JB behind entirely. But I felt that was weird after awhile and finally came back.
I love those girls so much. they are absolutely amazing. But what's sad it probably one or two actually know who i am, even after everything I've posted there. I'm not popular there, yet it holds something special to me.
That was the place I could go to whe I was stressed and I'd forget everything.
That's what is making everything hard right now. What I feel is best for me is to leave the community completely. & never come back.
The comments are getting to me..
just today, the discussion was about some little 12 year olds over at Team Jonas who were talking about CallUsFreaks and all of the discussions that they think are disrespectful to the boys. Like how girls there talk about having sex with them when they wear a purity ring. But some other things as well.
When I read all of the comments from the members, and how they all pretty much said, "GTFO" or "Geez, some people are so sheltered" it made me so sad. Because I knew what I'd get either blocked, or hated for.
I agreed with these little twats at Team Jonas.
If any member is reading this, you're probably thinking I'm 13 and just have had no education in that area before so I automatically think wrong of it.
SO WRONG.
I'm 17. I know alot, trust me. Thus me saying I joked about it alot with you guys. I had all of those awesome discussions there, that made me laugh for the rest of the week like vikings(LMFAO!), chipmunks, and blue steel face.
& many other things ONLY a CUF member would even get.
Which makes it so hard for me to get myself to leave this place. But I'm sure after a member reads this, I'll never be welcome there again. & I'm sorry. I truley am.
I'm going against the girls I used to stick up for,
But my relationship with God means more to me than anything.
So I really hope I can get myself to leave soon.
new video. (sharpay evans ;; holiday[!])
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i'll have new graphics soon. i'm going to do an interest post. (:
[9] avatars
[4] banners
[1] wallpaper
*also includes steven curtis chapman, marybeth, stevey joy, & will franklin*
- i need ideas, people. (:
- credit if use.
- taking requests.
taylor xoxo
does anyone have any requests they'd like me to do? i'll take anything. not just disney or christian rock stuff, anything. i'm really in a graphic drought. i have nothing to make of, haha.
just leave a comment. if you can, drop me a few pictures. (:
me and my friend almost cried making this. but we held through, but i just watched it and just burst into tears. it's finally sinking in. maria is gone...oh my god. just watch.
spring is and foremost, will be the worst time of year for my family+i. & today, for my dear chapmans. some of the sweetest people that have ever entered my life. steven, marybeth, emily, caleb, willy frank, shaohannah hope, stevey joy, & maria sue.
their dear child, maria, five-years-old, was hit by a car today, suffering with severe, critical injuries. her injuries, sadly, led to death.
i can't explain to you how shocked i was by this news. this little girl, although i've only met her+her family once, is knowingly, one of the happiest, biggest balls of energies. & knew so well about God for her small age.
my family+i couldn't help but say, "oh my god" over and over again. i'm dead serious when i say this is all we STILL can say, although we heard the news a few hour ago.
this is the most horrible thing that could have happened to this family, but what makes things worse, is their youngest son, will franklin, 17, was the one that ran over her. steven, the father, watched this, but could not get to dear maria in time.
willy frank is one of the most genuine people i've ever known. he makes life fun, & i know i have alot of jonas brothers fans on my f-list, y/y? he is like the joe of the family. he's deeply funny, has a heart of gold, and is a true man of god. he really could not hurt a fly.
i'm still so in shock over this news, that i can't even cry. i re-read the articles in my head over and over again, but it's like i'm hearing it for the first time. i don't even know where to begin.
i just saw this sweet girl back in september. so full of life, so happy. i want more than anything to bring this cherub face back, but the only thing i can do+you can do, is PRAY. please, anyone that has read this, please, pray.
**willy frank+maria in the middle. holding onto each other.**
--all pictures belong to Chapfam albums. all photos taken on March 21st--
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- credit.
- taking requests.
- feel free to ask me to add text &/or a texture/brush.
i'm going to start posting the videos i've posted on youtube. this IS an 'art' site after all. (:
songs included: live high - jason mraz, summergirls - lfo, curse of curves - cute is what we aim for, she's a lady - forever the sickest kids, the show - hawk nelson, until you - dave barnes.
subjects: 1) Jonas Brothers. 2) HSM2-Troyella. 3) HSM1&2-Chadpay. 4) HSM&JB-Kevpay/Ashvin. 5) Jonas Brothers. 6) JB&CR-Demo/Jemi.
all under the cut.
[11] wallpapers.
[2] icons.
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includes: the jonas brothers, demi lovato, lyric wall, invisible children, shaohannah's hope.
- comment if taking banner.
- feedback(hai janet jackson!) appreciated.
- requests are COMPLETELY open.
- no credit needed.
Tayy xoxo
yay, they won. what an honor! anyway, i was bored waiting for them to start so i looked through a list of tutorials and made a batch of icons with it. & one banner after the show. enjoy.
[11] icons.
[1] banner.
includes: the jonas brothers.
- taking requests
- comment if taking.
- no credit needed.
- needs ideas for wallpapers. (:
[51] icons.
[18] banners.
includes: jonas brothers, demi lovato, selena gomez, ashley tisdale, chelsea staubb, miley cyrus(as/not hannah montana).
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- comment if taking banners.
- no credit needed.
- taking requests.
- needs ideas for wallpapers. :)
I did anyway though, for my dad. So we got there and talked with a nurse for about 10 minutes and she gave us all her medicine that we'd have to give her and was really really nice. She went back to get Katie and a couple minute later she pulled us into a room and told us she had passed away just minutes before.
I just stared at her blankly for a few seconds and I broke down. My dad was so strong, I was so proud of him. My mom is in the other room right now, I can hear every sob. You may ask why I'm not comforting her? I was but she said to give her and my dad some time alone and since I've finally calmed down a little bit, whenever I'm depressed or angry, I always write it out.
I didn't even get to say goodbye to her. I can't walk in the laudry room right now because she's in a box in there. We decided to bury her ourselves because that'd be the best we can do.
We have good family friends, like I call them my cousins and think of them more of cousins that my own actual cousins, that said they'd be more than happy to do it for us. Bury her I mean. My mom, my sister and I have decided that for sure we won't go. I would NOT be able to handle it what so ever. I'd act like a maniac as would my mom. She's our baby. So the boys are talking about weather they should go out there with them. To their property I mean. Our city refuses to let people do it out in the city and they live out in the country so that'd be better then doing something else that the vet would do to her.
This will probably be my last update about her. Thank you Kelly for writing and praying, and thanks to anyone that read this. I really appreciate your support.
God Bless,
Taylor xoxo
My dog really needs some prayers. My 18 year old cockapoo named, Katie. She has been here my entire life. I'm 17 so that's pretty logical.
Story?
Last night I fell asleep on the couch, because I stayed up to watch JB on Jimmy Kimmel. I fell asleep around 2 AM, my mom and sister had been up with me to watch it. They were doing Bible study when I fell asleep so...yah. Anyawy, I woke up around 7 or 8 to my mother crying. I asked her what was wrong and she said that Katie had woken up about 15 minutes before and just started passively bleeding. So my dad and brothers took her to the vet, rushed her actually. My mom had told me to go back to sleep, so I did. I woke up about an hour ago on my parent's bed. Katie's still not home but everyone else is, you have no idea how much this scared me. My dad woke up and I asked him what was going on, if Katie was alright because when I had fallen back asleep earlier, the doctor hadn't told them anything yet other than she was sick. Big help, ikr? My dad looked me straight in the eyes, CRYING. My dad NEVER cries. I couldn't help but start crying as well. He finally told me and it just happens to be that her kidneys are shutting down and liver and heart. She doesn't have a time line but the doctors gave her some medicine and all we have to crutch on is faith. I am so scared right now. I can't tell you how much that dog has been through with me. -And it's even harder on my mom and dad because before they even had me, they had Katie and have always treated her like the non-talking kid of theirs. It's normal for me to talk to Katie or anyone of my dogs(I have four counting Katie) and believe it or not, I feel better. She's just the most loyal dog ever. When anyone wakes up in the morning, even if she's sick, she walks into whereever you are and greets you. Sweetest little thing. This morning was the first time EVER that I've been home and I haven't had her little black nose sniffing at my toes. My dog Cubby, a little boy, is going crazy. He treats Katie like his mother and you can tell he's worried. He's so hyper active and crazy, today he jus awnst to lay down, it's like he has depression.
The only thing that is keeping me from breaking down right now is God. -And I've been listening to Take A Breath and Hold On by the Jonas Brothers alot too. Probably have replayed them millions of times since I woke up.
So please, not me, but my dog, just please, pray. If you don't pray, please just keep her in your thoughts. Prayer works. Trust me I know. I know that if it's in God's will for her to go now, she will, there is nothing I can do about that. -But I have hope.
In Him,
Taylor xoxo
P.S. You girls at CuF are cheering me up so much. Going on today and reading your hysterical comments and posts and commentary made me giggle and kept my mind off of her for awhile. So thank you girls, I love you guys to pieces. :)
Bunch of stuff. I was really in need of a variety post. I've done way too much of JUST JB. Which isn't exactly bad...:)
[14] icons.
[13] banners.
[3] wallpapers.
includes: jonas brothers, ashley tisdale, tcg, chris brown, taylor swift, family force five, hawk nelson, stevenson, emily osment, miley cyrus, kaycie stroth, relient k, switchfoot, brenda song, demi lovato, selena gomez, micheal seater, ashley leggat & august rush.
NOTE: I WILL BE ADDING MORE SOON. I GOT REALLY REALLY TIRED. SORRY. =[
teaser:
i'm wanting to make a huge wallpaper post. quote wallpapers included. anyone have any ideas?
oh, & credit <lj user="xx_spazzilla"> for these if taken. (:
thanks.
tay xoxo
well, this wasn't going to be posted until i had more to add to it but my computer is crashing from all the photos i have on it so i'm getting rid of it now. enjoy.
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[2] friends only banners.
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includes camp rock, jonas brothers, demi lovato, sisterhood of the traveling pants, ashley tisdale, photography, paramore.
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includes jonas brothers, miley cyrus
